1.25.2003

Occasionally, I wonder if anyone ever reads this. Michelle does, because it's the only way she can find out what i'm feeling. If that's not pathetic i don't know what is. Kris used to come, but I'm positive she doesn't any longer. I can't lock my entries, so i couldn't stop her if I wanted to. Beyond that, I can only think of a few other people that i passively want to know what I'm feeling on a day-to-day basis. Perhaps now that I have nobody left to protect, I'll start to put these abstract feelings of anger/pain/hatred and everything else that runs through my head daily into words. Perhaps getting them out will actually help to make me feel better. Perhaps not as "better" as a half a bottle of valium, but at least from a therapeutic standpoint, it'd be healthier for me.

Maybe I'll give it a try.
posted at 20:11

Lies were told instead.